Because everyone else will expect good from me.
I don’t really have any regrets when I was with you. I treated you right, and you can’t hate me for anything. I’ve made myself unforgettable in your life, and I’m happy with that.
My life is quite fine, I don’t have much problems. My mind is always wondering off to dark memories and depressing futures.
I’ve come to a realization in my life.
I try to believe that there is such a thing of people staying in your life, and never leaves. After all my experiences, I’ve lost that hope. There is no such thing as that. People will walk in your life, and decide whether they want to leave or not for themselves. It won’t ever be your say. Even the ones who you had a long term friendship or connection, they will eventually leave. Don’t think they won’t, because you will just lead into disappointment. Never think they’ll come back, because you thought that history you had with them was too good to end. It will. All good things must come to an end.
No matter how much you want to. You’ll remember from time to time, and remember how things used to be. Holding onto every piece of memories and moments you had with them, because it’s all you have left. And you can’t get rid of history.
I’m a motherfucking mess.